wen

i've been waiting all my life.

i don't know if it's just me.
but i almost never wanna stay in 'right now'.

i need motivation to get through every single day.

and it's usually the same motivation
to get outta here
out of singapore, away from home.

i was looking forward to diving in philippines in october
vietnam & cambodia in january
new zealand in february
and USA/australia for most of next year.

and then when we're together
i look forward to greater times
simple times
happy times like it used to be.

i believed that the process, as daunting as it may get, is worth the while as long as we get there eventually.
i had faith that good things come to those who wait.

but it gets tiring along the way.
why wait?
why not now?

if you really know that's what you want, if you know it's not just an impulse, why not now?

i think i know why, but i'm just frustrated.
let me be.
i'll be okay after a while.

2.3
one more week one more week!

i'm inserting details of some products at work for some website
and came across this description about a fan. as in, electric standing fan.

Super quite

so... is it super, or is it quite?

3.3
time is definitely NOT passing fast enough

i'm sick and tired of

- telling people about her
- getting affected just by the very thought of her
- trying to be nice to her

and i wish i could

- just ignore her
- move out of the house
- stop thinking about it

4.3

finally mustered the courage to walk into the room and tell her.
and to nobody's surprise at all, she flipped.
tried to talk her round but it was in vain.

oh well.

i'm glad i finally got it over and done with.
didn't mention a thing about USA, but i guess i'm not telling her. ever.
that's the only thing left to worry about for now.

now i can rejoice! :D

encore please :D

3.1.3
love that its good friday this week!

o m g o s h ,

t i m e   i s   p a s s i n g   b y 
s o   f r e a k i n   s l o w l y   t h a t 
i   t h i n k 
i t s   a b o u t    t o   s t o p
c o m p l e t e l y .

i s   i t   r e a l l y ? ? ?

2.3
time has been crawling by since the countdown started


i think it's true.

i really am allergic to work.

almost every morning, i wake up fresh as a daisy, feeling fine, and looking forward to the end of the day.
the moment i step into the office, a sneeze hits me.
i turn on my computer, sit in my chair, my nose starts to itch.
and then when i start doing work, my nose starts running like a spoilt tap that can't be turned off.
usually this situation improves a little when i'm out for lunch, but returns to the original state when i'm back.
i'll sniff and sneeze all the way till its 7, then when i step out of the office, i feel better instantly.
by the time i'm out of little india, i wonder all that mucus went. 

1.2.3

my project manager asked me if i was playing card games on the computer yesterday, because the boss saw me at it.

i do understand that no boss will be happy seeing his employee playing freecell at work
but i don't think he understands that you don't expect your workers to be working their ass off every single second of that 8 hours in the office.

but whatever.

so how boss? you wanna sack me?


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ah. pms-y day. can't wait to knock off.